It has recently come to my attention that the media has ruined my life. I have this warped vision of who I should want to become. And the thing is, that I genuinely do want to be these people. The thing is that I sub-consciously have tried to infuse elements of their awesomeness into my own “lame-cool” personality. So here it is, the list of all the people I want to become.
I want to be the girl who:
Is nerdy cute, kicks total butt, and saves the day way more often than Harry Potter.
Who has men eating out of the palm of her hand, and who is so spoiled by affection that men won’t be mad at her even when she has done something truly heartless. I also want to be a little bit heartless, painfully beautiful, and just quirky enough that it’s not weird, but totally endearing.
Who leaves strong men powerless, and does so without mercy (If you haven’t read Keats’ poem, here’s some ear candy for you).
I want to be the girl who can say everything she needs to say through dance.
And the girl who talks REALLY REALLY fast, and who has charming emotional issues.
And Shakira. Because who DOESN’T want to be Shakira?
INSTEAD: I have come to the startling realization that I am not so much tall, but short and squatty with depressingly small fingernail nubs, whose nerdiness is less charming and moreso overt and obnoxious, who word vomits rather that wit battles, and cares DEEPLY about hurting people’s feelings, and with absolutely ZERO ZERO ZERO rhythm or dancing ability. This. is. not. great.
But maybe that is exactly who I should WANT to be anyways.
I think you kind of look like Shakira, at least more than I do.
The good news is that most of these people stole their good traits from you in the first place. Your struggle actually reflects your inner connection to the angst that the world feels for only partially attaining "Sierra-ness."
would you give up your ability to write like this to dance like that?
biff
It's a little ridiculous how much I love most of these women. Excellent examples! The mere fact you can pick out the best parts of all of them just adds to your inherent awesomeness.
For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.
I wish I was the first to say these words, but Benjamin Button beat me to it.
I'm perfectly content with the Sierra I know…but you are a nerd. 🙂